Wednesday, August 6th, 2003
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10:20 pm - Wok check this shit....
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Boo-fucking-ya super guard(Chad Smith)!!! This stupid ass guard test totally made my summer.... check this I got 13 outa 59 on the ranking list and "super guard" got 56 haha and hes the "know-it-all" that thinks hes a supervisor and tells every1 how to do their jobs! ~woo~ that totally makes me happy!
::kid walks on during in the park rotation while Jaynie and I are on top; then runs w/ tube in hand to gravity groove::
Jaynie: "hun how much do you weight?"
Kid: "why?!?!"
Jaynie: "because... I need to know in order for you to go down this slide."
Kid: " ohhh ok... hah that's easy I weigh 10!"
Jaynie: (as she looks at me in confusion) "10 what pounds?!"
Kid: (looking in confidence) "yes that's right!"
Jaynie: (puzzled) " well then you don't weight enough... the min for this slide is 140lbs." (pointing th the slide)
::Celena turns away biting her hand as he move to another slide and helps him proceed down midnight express::
Jaynie: "well that was different!"
Celena: " I know.... he was as tall as he was wide not to mention that he had more roles than a package of Sarah Lee backery fresh rolls!!"
That day was totally funny!!
In other news allman brothers was fucking awsome! I HAVE THE AMY DANCE!
Guys totally suck... especially 1s that think I go out w/ girls instead of them!
Well me out!! Me love most of you~hehe~
xoxoxoxoxo
<333333
Luna
current mood:  contemplative
current music: Damien Marley
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Thursday, July 3rd, 2003
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4:21 pm - protect me from sharp objects.....
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I'm so fed of with guys right now.... Eric blows me off sometimes it seems and its like he doent want to be with me any more.... so I just dont know any longer. But yea I'm confused once again and lifes pritty fucking crapy.
I'm finally done with counceling so I guess I'm all beter now. hah see how long that lasts.
final thought boys=shit!!
current mood:  infuriated
current music: led zeplin
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Tuesday, July 1st, 2003
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10:14 pm - summer girls have all the fun.....
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Man I'm in this rut for sex haha....I'm such a hornball!! Pap died on the 13(june) I went to harrisburgh to the viewing and funeral.... I chilled w/ the fam and it was cool see all them after so long! I'm sick of children... I'm never having any...EVER! Guys make me realize how much I hate my boobs sometimes..... Someone please tell whats so amusing about boobs?!?!?!
yellowhemp77: i need sex
yellowhemp77: lol
Avoid0neThing: me too
Avoid0neThing: haha
yellowhemp77: lol
Avoid0neThing: if one of us were a guy we'd be fixed lol
yellowhemp77: this is so true
Avoid0neThing: haha yes
Man I love Trixie she rocks my world!!
But yea anyways.... nothing really new here...Celena is increadably sick of guys right now they don't call or come over and worse yet you can't get em for sex!! Sooo Yea....
Hmmmm........ nothing else I can write about so yea........I'm done!
current mood:  horny
current music: Damien Marley
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Wednesday, May 21st, 2003
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7:57 pm - Time drages on.......
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Dude school needs to hury up and end!! I'm freaking sick of seeing teachers and getting out of bed before 12pm! I can't wait till summer starts and I hope it drags on forever! I need to get my arse in gear and get sr. pics done so I can start my dreads ~woo~ I got a hair cut tonight so hopefully it'll be my last!!
I'm going to see the allman brothers this summer my dad got me tickets I'm freaking excited!! If we can convince my mommy I'm gonna go w/ some of my friends to jerry's b-day bash wich would be sweet! I'm gonna try and make this summer awsome and not get myself in touble this year::evil grins:: (not to self: dont get caught)
In other news...... valerie is writing her 1st book which i started to reed the
beginning of it and it's increadably funny! So everyone bug her for a copy!!
I wanna go see ziggy marley soooooo bad but my stupid dad doesnt wanna go to philly ::pouts:: but ohh well........
I need to find katie a nice boyfriend thats not gonna play head games and isn't gonna be an ass.....a nice virgin would be good! Katie needs to be happy!! (note to Dan: your a butt head!) (note to Mike: your a deldondreack!)
I spent the weekend w/ marlett in pittsburgh we had a blast....... the highlight of the weekend was getting a ziggy marley cd for$2.50!! I now know turkey loaf scares me!! I'm seriously afraid of screaming children!! Katie gets scary when she has lots of sugar and no sleep!::raw::
Somebody save me I'm gonna be stuck w/ my family at my uncles camp all weekend for our family reunion...... hell in a bread box......some1 give me drugs!!
Well this be all for now!!
xoxoxo
current mood:  mellow
current music: rusted root
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Friday, March 14th, 2003
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7:11 pm
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Thursday, March 6th, 2003
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5:53 pm - living in my world of dreams......
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I went to have my prom dress altered today.... the school is so anel.... I don't even know why I bother?!?! maybe its cuz my mother just wants me to be normal...when I'm not even close! now that I'm going I must find a date..... theres a feet in itself, wish this whole process was easier. perhapse im cursed and im destined to never find a bf cuz as its looking i haven't had 1 in a really really long time. boy just dont like me! if theres some1 out there that likes me they'de have to be pritty damn stupid!! i need a way to meet singles or something because im kinda lonely!
I have art class tonight..... i really dont feel like going as usual.... maybe because mrs wall ruined it for me forcing me to paint so much shit i really am not in the mood to do!
current mood: cynical
current music: van morrison
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Friday, February 28th, 2003
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3:29 pm - mix me an asprin cocktail ill do it the right way.......
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im increadably sick of people sometimes i just wanna chase a bottle of asprin with a bottle of vodka just like susana kason in girl interrupted..... i feel like lisa does most of the time its just like im dead emotionally but not yet physically. i cant live in my depressed skin much longer its like being in a nightmare that i never awake from only to relize im pinching myself and im awake. what can i do just to be normal im just driving myself slowly crazy threw the years or am i just to insane to begin with?! sometimes i wish i knew myself. its like living in a complete strangers body and all you know is the motions to barley survive daily life.i wear this mask its covered with feathers and glitter not revealing my face only showing the emotions and the person im not i live as a novilty to the world around me appearing happy strong and carefree.... im not any of these inside im screaming to break free of my exterior to be resolved of my sickness. why cant i be myself when myself is a terrable ugly beast that rears its sharp claws in agony ripping away the flesh and bone of its predicessors..... dripping sad emotions of carless thoughts of sucide into a sour pool thick like blood but so much deeper than the human eye could ever see. im not shallow like that im a deep hole full of cold heartless emotions.
current mood:  melancholy
current music: jimmi hendrix~ little wing
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Saturday, February 22nd, 2003
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10:15 pm - hold me closer tiny dancer......
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i don't think we really know ourselfs at all other people do because they can see us and we refuse to see ourselveswe live in our skin for what seems like an eternity and we become so mindless and depressed in it that we dont know who we are im never going to find myself i hate being me some days i just feel like staying in bed and never comming out and facing the world again
i saw ian at the mall this evening..... man i can't help thinking of jordan when i see him..... what can i say i do miss him and still have feelings for him it just like nothing i ever had with anyone ive ever met that time we kissed at the show ide never felt like that before...... its so undescribable i dunno if ill ever really get over him hes such a great and talented person..... but ide never have anything to offer him at all but life goes on and the world keeps turning
i can't help thinking that guys just use me sometimes it seems like every guy i hang out w/ wants sex or what ever and then they dont talk to me or they dick me over and don't return my call but talk to me at school its just shit life in general that is im starting to think love is just something they talk about in fairy tales it never really happens in real life... at least not to people like me im to fucked up
im sick of depression i hate feeling the way i do sometimes i mean im feeling low and if i got anylower ide bottomn out ive tryed to stop cutting because it scares my friends and its making me feel worse i often think about just doing myself in and getting it the hell over w/ sometimes but i know ill prob never work up the balls to just do it its just i want to so bad but i can't ahhh
i don't know anymore life is so fucking confusing i cant stand it
current mood:  confused
current music: clem snide~ moment in the sun
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Saturday, February 15th, 2003
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1:45 am
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Sunday, February 9th, 2003
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7:33 pm
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Rock on. You're Courtney Love.
What sexy girl are you
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Ahh it was an increadably boring weekend..... i did absolutly nothing but lay around and sleep. its most likely better this way.... i hate people lately!
swimmings finally over thank god!!
xoxox I Love you!!
current mood: cranky
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Thursday, February 6th, 2003
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7:03 pm
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Sunday, January 26th, 2003
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6:24 pm - woo what a weekend.....
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Wednesday, January 22nd, 2003
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4:38 pm
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Sunday, January 19th, 2003
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11:55 am - ::evil looks::
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I fucking hate people!!! Espically the preppy chicks on my swim team... I've about had it with all of them honestly! Where do people get off calling me a lesbian when they don't know me from any one?! I swear to god I'm going to fucking kill the girl that said it and i do make that known to anyone! I sick of people going behind my back saying shit and then my friends tell me stuff they said.... if you going to say something say it to my face its not like i can't take it just because I'm outa my fucking mind acording to some people doesn't mean shit! At the end of the season im going to get her fucking ass and shes going to hear it from me I promis you that! If i get myself locked up again so be it the immature winey ass little bitch who think shes such hot shit is going to learn to keep her mouth shut! People just infuriate me I'm done being nice to people they can fuck off and die for all i care!! I'm not dealing with it any longer! FUCK YOU... FUCK YOU ALL!! LEAVE ME ALONE IF YOU CAN'T BE HONEST WITH ME!
It doesn't matter any more i guess im better off just dead or in an assylum!! I just can't stand people being this way any longer!Lock me away and protect me from myself for once I don't want to endure this bullshit anymore! So give me a gun I'll pull the triger for I no longer fear death, I've looked it in the eye so many times befor and im ready to do it again with out turning back. I want to be in a place where nobody can judge me! I'm sick of living this depression i can never break free of this feeling of drug enduced happyness that my only way of living is threw using an emotion mask. I'm already dead emotionally so why not catch my body up?!
current mood: irritated
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Friday, January 17th, 2003
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6:18 pm
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Sammie you're the bestest friend i could ever ask for!! I'm blessed to have some1 in my life like you!!
current mood:  blah
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Sunday, December 29th, 2002
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9:39 pm
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Saturday, December 28th, 2002
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1:24 pm - holidays suck
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Sunday, December 8th, 2002
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8:46 pm
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Sunday, December 1st, 2002
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10:07 pm - woah...
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Monday, September 2nd, 2002
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8:51 pm - blah....
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